The Sweet Escape

Because you totally love me :)

2010-05-12T19:42:00.001+08:00

I may not be Fred Flinstone,

but I can make your Bed Rock :D

Darling, you are the only exception :)

2010-05-12T19:41:00.000+08:00

I wanna be a billionaire so fucking bad :)

Dear May,

Life has been okayokay.

I guess it'a pretty 50-50, haha.

School has been okaayy, too.

I'm scared for the exams.

I'm so hoping for at least 7 A's.

AND I DON'T WANNA FAIL PHYSICS ):

Ugh,

I feel absolutely tired lahh.

Sleeping late and all every night has been getting on my nerves.

\Did you knowwww?

That you can die of lack of sleep?

I KNOWWW rightt?

LIKE WTF kann?

HAHAHA :)

Well,

Thanks to my beloved BestFriend ):

We haven't spoken to each other in 5 days,

yes, we broke a record.

Thankyou , Samuel :P

All of us have been BALALACA-fied :D

LOL

I TOLD THEM,

I wanted to name Pimp, BALALACA.

but they said NO ):

If you haven't met PIMP yet,

PIMP is our baby turtle :)

Anyways, I have to go right nowww.

I have tuition at 8,

bleccch.

wish me luck.

tata.

love yah guys loads :)

Message me if you want,

I'm bored.

or even better,

pick up yor phone and call me :D

loads of love, hugs and kisses,
maria xandria claudia morden :)

I should have been sent to a reformatory centre, LOL :)

2010-05-12T19:28:00.000+08:00

Rule of the game:

Copy and paste everything, do it and re-post the title with whatever rank you were given.

Ranks are given at the bottom of this note

If you have done something in this school which is indicated by the sentence, mark the [ ] on the left side of the thing you have done with X.

Let the game begin.

Level 1:

[X]Sleep in class

[X]Talked in class

[X]Not seating at your own place in class

[X]Scolded by a teacher

[X]Litter the classroom

[X]Did not do your homework at least 15 times

[X ]Submitted your homework late at least 10 times

[X]Came late for school at least 10 times

[X]Brought/wore home clothes without school's permission

[X]Brought/wore jewellery to school

[X]Did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time

[X]Cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" to the teacher

[X]Plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school

[X]Copied other people's homework in desperation

[X]played a trick on your classmates/teacher

Total so far: 15

Level 2:

[X]Sent for detention class

[X]Late in class

[X]Not wearing your school uniform (if you have) properly

[X]Shouted at the top of your voice during lesson time

[X]Scolding vulgarities in class

[X]Spotted hairstyle deemed unacceptable by the school

[X]Used a school facility without school's permission

[X]Played soccer/basketball or any other sports in classroom

[X]Singing loudly during lesson

[X]Walking around the class aimlessly during lesson time

[X]Did not greet the teacher properly

[X]Went to the toilet during lesson time without permission

[X]Played a trick on the teacher during april fools

[X]Used the teacher's table as a rubbish dump

[X]Made yourself a nuisance to the teacher

Total so far: 30

Level 3:

[X]Was asked to stay back after school/ break time

[X]Made a fool out of morning assembly

[X]Wasted the school's toilet paper

[X]Sabotaged someone

[X]Irritated someone

Total so far: 35

Level 4:

[X]forged your parent's signature

[X]forged a classmate's signature

[X]forged a teacher's signature

[X]made rude remarks to the school cleaners in front of them

[X]flew a paper aeroplane down from the school from at least the fourth storey

Total so far: 40

Level 5:

[X]fiddling with your handphone during lesson time

[X]played with your PSP in school

[X] using school computer to play games without a teacher's permission

[X]listened to an MP3 player in school

[X]messed with the teacher's pigeon hole

Total so far: 45

Level 6:

[X]vandalising with school property

[X]tried to defame your school in public

[X]used the internet to scold teachers

[X]fought with someone in school

[ ]shoplifted in school

Total so far: 49

Level 7:

[X]cheated in a class test

[X]cheated in a school examination

[ ]cheated for your PSLE/ GCE 'O' or 'A' Level Examination

[X]lied to your teacher

[X] played truancy for hall assemblies/ specific lessons

Total so far: 53

Level 8:

[ ]took drugs in school

[ ]smoked in school

[X]set fire to something in the school

[X]locked the teacher out of the classroom

[X]played truancy just after coming to school just to take attendance

Total so far: 56

Level 9:

[X]refused to pay school fees

[X]cheated the school money

[X]stole things which belonged to the school

[X]bullied someone in school

[X]pranked called your school

Total so far:61

Level 10:

[X]raised your voice/shouted against a student leader

[X]raised your voice/shouted against a teacher

[X]raised your voice/shouted against your discipline master/mistress

[X]raised your voice/shouted against your vice-principal

[X]raised your voice/shouted against your principal

Total so far: 66

Level 11:

[ ]brought weapons to the school

[ ]brought real firearms to the school

[ ]brought a real bomb to the school

[ ]fired a real weapon in the school with the motive to frighten/kill

[ ]dressed up as a terrorist to school

Grand total : 66

Ranks:

If you are between 0-15 -------------{I am a good student}

If you are between 16-20------------{I am a good student but with occasional trouble}

If you are between 21-30------------{I am an average student}

If you are between 31-40------------{I am a bad student}

If you are between 41-50------------{I am a very bad student}

If you are between 51-60------------{I should have been caned by the discipline master}

If you are between 61-65------------{I should have been expelled from school}

If you are between 66-75------------{I should have been sent to a reformatory centre}

50 little secrets :)

2010-05-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

50 Little Secrets.

01. Who was your last text from?

- Danial :)

02. Where was your default picture taken?

- At school.

03. Your relationship status?

- It's complicated.

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?

- Yes.

05. What is your current mood?

- Kinda upset.

06. How many siblings do you have?

- two.

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?

- Zarrah and Kelly.

08. Where do you wish you were right now?

- At school :P

09. Have a crazy side?

- Definitely.

10. Ever had a near death experience?

- Maybe.

11. Something you do a lot?

- Breathe? HAHA :)

12. Angry at anyone?

- very much.

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?

- A lot of things.

14. When was the last time you cried?

- Maybe last week?

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?

- Of courseee :]

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?

- Stuff, I guess.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

- Danial :)

18. What is your favorite song?

- If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield.

19. What are you doing right now?

- On the phone, HAHAH.

20. Who do you trust right now?

- A lot of people, I guess :)

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

- Relay For Life, HAHAHA :P

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?

- Maybe? *wink wink HAHAHA, no lahh.

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?

- Sufian? :)

24. Describe your life in one word?

- Awesome.

25. Who are you thinking of right now?

- Someone :P

26. What should you be doing right now?

- Studying, exams coming up, ugh.

27. What are you listening to?

- Music? HAHAH, or Danial telling lame jokes, once again.

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?

- Leela?

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?

- As in fun, fun? HAHAH, EMMA, LOL.

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?

- Uh, maybe? hahaha.

31. What is your natural hair color?

- Not so sureee.

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?

- I just did, so Danial :P

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?

- Ugh, he meant a lot to meee, go figure, and he still means a lot to me :)

34. What do you hear?

- The TV.

35. Is your hair curly or straight?

- Curvy.

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?

- YES, HAHA.

37. Do you have a best friend?

- Definitely.

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?

- Yes.

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?

- ALL THE TIME :D

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

- Yeaaapp.

41. Are you happy with life right now?

- Not really.

42. Are you currently jealous?

- very, very.

43. What jewelery are you currently wearing?

- The Bracelet.

44. What were you doing on friday night?

- I don't remember.

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?

- YES ):

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?

- Perhaps?

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?

- A whole lot.

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?

- Fever?

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?

- 12am ish, homework ):

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?

- Yes :P

Bittersweet April

2010-04-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

Bittersweet April (:

April.

There's nothing much I can say about April.

It was pretty blurred out for me.

Everything went by in a ruuuuuush.

heeee.

Let's start from ze beginning eh?

I went for ze olahraga thingymajiggy,

where I met coolio awesome people,

ahah,

mainly Diyanah (:

my little munchkin,

who is in form 2,

aaaaand she gave me muffins today,

which tasted effingly awesome.

aaaaaaaaaaaaand then there was exams.

EXAMS WAS GOOOOD :D

I got 90 for Sejarah, 93 for BM and 92 for Sivic,

yes, I is dammn bangga.

ahahah :)

After thaaaat,

back to normaaaal,

had a few dramas,

blah blah,

camp people came back on sunday.

I WENT FOR KELLY CLARKSON,

AND WAS RIGHT IN FRONT.

TAKEEEE THAATTT!

MWAHAHAHAH.

She was fantasticoo :)

absolutely brilliant.

I am pretty obsessed with two of her songs,

I want you, which I sing in class ALL OF ZE TIME :)

and then there's also All I Ever Wanted,

FANTASTICOOO :D

You asking me bout guys?

ahaha,

well,

nothing in that area ;)

Lastly,

I miss my stupid bestfriend,

who's completely forgotten about meee,

and I miss our random phone calls,

just because he is involved in his stupid F1 thingymajiggy.

I hope it ends sooon,

cause I miss you, retaaard :P

stupid samuel john ):

loads of love, hugs and kisses,

maria xandria claudia morden :)

EXAAAAAAAAAAAAMS ):

2010-04-19T14:08:00.000+08:00

Let's talk about you and me,
and what could've been :)

OMGEE.
I have finally cracked, I swear, haha.
Just yesterday, I went completely bonkers over the exams,
MID YEAR EXAMS starts in a fuhreakin month man ):

I did pretty okay for well, this month.

Sejarah : 90
Bm : 93
English : Still unknown
Sivik : Still Unknown
Moral : 73
PK : 68 ):
Maths : 64
Add Maths : Still unknown
Chem : 60
Bio : 64
Physics : 41 HAHAHAH! I know rightt? XD

That's about it :)

Crawl by Chris Brown :)

2010-03-04T18:00:00.000+08:00

And this is such a sad song :'(

I cry when I hear this i swear.

Crawwwwwl.

Crawl Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Everybody see's it's you
I'm the one that lost the view
Everybody says we're through
I hope you haven't said it too
So where
Do we go from here
With all this fear in our eyes
And where
Can love take us now
We've been so far down
We can still touch the sky

[Chorus]

If we crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, Yeah

[Verse 2]

Why did I change the pace
Hearts were never meant to race
I always felt the need for space
But now I can't reach your face
So where
Are you standing now
Are you in the crowd of my faults
Love, can you see my hand?
I need one more chance
We can still have it all

[Chorus]

If we crawl(if we crawl)
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run (then we'll run)
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, yeaaah

[Bridge]

Everybody see's it's you
Well I never wanna lose that view

[Chorus]

So we'll crawl (if we crawl)
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl

So we'll crawl (ooh)
Till we can walk again (till we can walk again)
Then we'll run (we'll run)
Until we're strong enough to jump (until we're strong enough to jump)
Then we'll fly (then we'll fly)
Until there is no end
So let's crawl, let's crawl, lets crawl
Back to love
Back to love yeah
Back to love

you likeeee?

break your heart by Taio Cruz :)

2010-03-04T17:55:00.000+08:00

this is a really catchy song :)

you should listen to it,

that is why i put it heree,

have fun listening.

yess, you always hear me, preet and dania singing this,

heeeeeeee,

so now you know the song :D

Click here to see the video and hear the song

Break Your Heart Lyrics

Woah Woah

Now listen to me baby

Before i love and leave you

They call me heart breaker

I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me

I'm not easy to please

I'mma tear you apart

Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Now listen to me baby

Before i love and leave you

They call me heart breaker

I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me

I'm not easy to please

I'mma tear you apart

Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Woah woah

Theres not point trying to hide it

No point trying to evade it

I know i got a problem

By doing this behavour

If you fall for me

I'm not easy to please

I'mma tear you apart

Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Other notes :

Women always like heartbreakers. Most women fall in love with heartbreakers. I suppose I'm one of those. In this moment, this video and song are adapt to me. He's even more of a bastard because he makes the girls who is in love with him very jealous. He approaches other girls in front of her. She's gonna be even more crazy but she likes him for that reason, crazy much? :D

The thing is, at least he's warning her, he's giving her a chance to back out. If you're stupid enough to fall for him, you're only going to have a broken heart, that's exactly what he means, all he wants is to play around, and that's it, nothing more. He's not looking for a relationship but this girl wants to play with fire. He's telling her that it's not good to fall for him, he will break your heart, no matter what. he's actually giving her a chance to back out, but she won't back down.

The funny thing is they think it's a game, everyone thinks the game of love is a game. Don't you dare say you've never thought of it as a game. The treat it as one, you flirt, they flirt back. You get interested, to keep holding their interest you flirt around with other people, making them jealous, your plan works, but it hurts the other party, that is what most people fail to realize. Flirting with other people makes them hurt even more but that will also make them retaliate to save their pride, and of course to make you jealous :D

I bet you've done it before kan? :) Anyways, that's what the song is really about.

-sighs-

2010-03-04T17:19:00.000+08:00

you build me up,

you break me down.

WHY IS MY PHONE SO FREAKIN SILENT?

DAMNYOU.

I think I shall go finish my karangan now :(

waiting for you :P

2010-03-04T17:12:00.001+08:00

baby, you know that i miss you,

i wanna get with you,

tonight but i cannot, baby boy,

and that's the issue,

boy you know i miss you,

i just wanna kiss you,

but i can't right now so baby,

kiss me through the phone :)

the phone stares at me,

while i'm waiting for you,

the phone rings,

i smile,

pick up the phone,

waiting to hear your voice,

but the feeling of disappointment fills me,

it's not you,

but i wish he was.

the phoneeee rings, once again,

and ne-yo starts singing "so sick" to me,

while i look at my phone,

knowing that it isn't you,

banging my head on the table,

just wishing it was you.

missing you hurts,

and it drives me to the point of insanity.

and i remember those times we talked,

on the phone,

on my stupid old sony ericcson phone.

and tears fill my eyes,

wondering if this really means goodbye,

as i wait along side the phone,

wanting to hear your voice.

knowing i never will,

the phone still stares,

as i await your call,

even a message or a missed call.

i miss you

and i shall keep staring til you call :D

phoneeeeeeee :P

2010-03-04T17:02:00.002+08:00

miss you loads.

should i?

it only talks a button to send?

THE CAAALL

2010-03-04T17:01:00.001+08:00

I got the call,

finally!

so freakin happy :)

eeeeeeeeeeek,

i swear,

i'm like superduper happy.

it's super unbelievable,

my gramma says i can still goo.

she saved that spot for me :)

thankyouuu!

ohmygosh.

i'm still screaming,

who the heck cares about my sore throat anyways?

OHMYGOSSSH!

The pieces of my heart is missing you

2010-03-04T16:58:00.000+08:00

when you're gone,

the pieces of my heart is missing you.

dear blog :P

my life is fantasticly awesome.

I'm always tired noww, ALWAYS.

I come back from school and die on the spot.

exams are coming soon,

i'm seriously stressed out.

i really don't know what to do.

the only subject i'm scared is PHYSICS.

it doesn't help that melawati live 2.0 is next saturday

i still have tickets if anyone wants to buy.

just find meeeeeeee at 4 Maju :P

or when you see me walking around.

I'm so obsessed with Taio Cruz's single.

It's called break your heart :)

what a freakin coincidence kan?

go listen to the song.

it's absolutely awesome.

btw, did i mention,

that i have a sore throat.

aaaaaaaaaand,

my voice is so cracky,

it actually hurts to talk,

plussss,

i have to sing for melawati live :P

mummy's coming home, finally,

after a month.

i really missed her :')

so finaaaaally.

haha.

which reminds me.

i have to attend some crappy crappy thingymajiggy next week.

OHHHHHHHH.

and i'm turning sixteen soon :)

thanks heavens for that.

should i get an ipod dock?

or my W995?

or a blackberry? =.="

so confused.

ahnyways,

school is school.

as usual,

hahaha.

except.

i don't know why.

but to day just seemed like a happy day.

i'm not going to care anymore,

it's not that i don't care,

i do,

i'm just giving up hope, you know :)

buuuuuuuuuuut,

i have my friends,

so i'll be fine,

you're fine,

why can't i be, too?

I'm happy, well, sorta,

i'm still depressed but i'm happy,

make any sense to yah?

ahnyways,

imma sleep late tonight,

so just rmbr,

DO NOT CALL FROM 8 TO 9:30 :D

I have tuition aightt.

text my 017 :)

and I will be your everything,

because I'm all that you need, baby,

be mine and we'll never have to hurt again :)

...

2010-03-03T17:46:00.002+08:00

...

yes, i do not have any idea what to say.

damnnn.

2010-03-02T15:18:00.000+08:00

damnitt laaah,

my effing mind keeps playing with meeee.

i can't stop thinking of it,

i just effing miss you,

enough said.

FULLSTOP

it sucked how i had to pass by your class most of the time.

and i tried my best to ignore you,

look away and all.

uggggh.

disappointed :(

2010-03-02T15:01:00.000+08:00

I'm disappointed because you believed them.

that's all.

ughhhh.

WHY DO I EVEN HAVE TO LIKE YOU? :(

OHMYGOSH!

shutup mind, shutup.

stop playing games,

i effing give up lah.

you know whatt?

screw it lah.

I'm sick and tired of all this crap dah.

isssshh.

to the phoneeeeee,

text my 017 number if yah need me.

which you never will,

whateverr.

sweet sixteen

2010-03-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

oh look,

i'm going to be sixteen soon

blecch.

what do i want for my birthday?

haha,

nothingg.

seriously.

shawn promised me a teddy bear.

i kind of don't want one.

for my own reasons.

yeaaah, whatever.

i miss you,

and it hurts.

there goes the first of march.

happy birthday, lexy :)

text me?

I don't know what to do

2010-03-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

I can't talk to you anymore,

It's not that I am mad at you,

It's just that when I talk to you,

I realize how much I love you

and when I realize how much I love you,

I realize I can't have you

and that makes me love you even more.

I don't think I love you,

I know I love you,

I just don't know what to do.

Like, seriously.

I'm blank.

Melwati live 2.0 is coming up,

and I am still date-less,

hahaha.

well, not so funny :(

I'm thinking of backing out,

I'm super scared.

I'm singing 2 songs.

if You're Not The One

Terrified :P

So, please come and support me?

I'll need it, seriously.

back to my emo-ness,

ohmygosh,

why the hell am i even emo-ing?

He's just a guy right?

but if he's just a guy,

why am I emo-ing?

And now I'm crapping,

nobody actually reads my blog,

thank heavens :)

Ack,

i miss you.

I've got no one else to talk to noww.

and it seriously sucks like hell,

because I love talking to you,

I love hearing the sound of your voice.

Buuuuuuuuuuuuut,

people make sacrifices,

Imma do that, too.

I'm not telling you,

cause that'll just ruin our friendship,

yeaaaapp.

I'm keeping it to myself,

because you deserve so much better then me.

You deserve those hot, smart girls, you knoww.

not meeeeeeeee.

I'm nothing compared to the other girls.

NOTHING.

So, I'm going to avoid you.

well, try.

I don't hate you,

just rmbr that,

it's the complete opposite.

I love you,

and it hurts.

damnitt.

Soooooo, yeaah.

oh btw,

if any of y'all need to contact me,

text me at my 017 number aightt? :)

ANYWAYS,

I love you,

and that's all I wanna say.

thanks for listening blog.

You effing win :(

2010-02-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

I officially miss you,

congratulations for doing this to me.

and yes i'm talking about you, pssh.

text me back?

i'll explain aightt :)

pleaseee,

because i know you're spying on my blog.

you WILL read this and you WILL text me.

:P

2010-02-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

The way I express my love for you is different.

it's hard.

you may mistake it for something else.

I may seem like that but I'm not.

Damnitt,

I'm sorry for everyone I hurt okay.

If it makes you all feel any better.

I shall shut up.

That way it'll be better right?

I shall try not to say much.

Because i tend to say a lot,

and I don't wanna hurt you guys as much as I have already.

It's no fair to some people,

yes, i know.

And I'm sorry okay.

Stuck :)

2010-02-28T19:52:00.000+08:00

Stuck :)

I can't get out of bed today

Or get you off my mind

I just can't seem to find a way

To leave the love behind

I ain't tripping

I'm just missing you

You know what I'm saying

You know what I mean

You've kept me hanging from a string

While you make me cry
I've tried to give you everything

But you just give me lies

I ain't tripping

I'm just missing you

You know what I'm saying

You know what I mean

Every now and then when I'm all alone

I'd be wishing that you would call me on the telephone

Say you want me back but you never do

I feel like such a fool

There's nothing I can do

I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it

What am I waiting for?

I'm still breaking

I miss you even more

And I can't fake it

The way I could before

I hate you but I love you

I can't stop thinking of you

It's true, I'm stuck on you

Now loves a broken record that's been

Skipping in my head

I keep singing yesterday

Why we have to play these games we play

I can't take it

What am I waiting for?

I'm still breaking

I miss you even more

And I can't fake it

The way I could before

I hate you but I love you

I can't stop thinking of you

I hate you but I love you

I can't stop thinking of you

Don't know what to do

I'm stuck on you

The Last Push

2010-02-28T19:32:00.003+08:00

Thank you Farhan Aiman for giving me The last push

I'm going to the gym.

pffft,

not funny okay!

haha :D

Lucky stars

2010-02-28T19:32:00.001+08:00

I thank my lucky stars I have

ilaina khairulzaman (:

love her to bits.

Sweet talker

2010-02-28T18:12:00.000+08:00

men, pfftt.

I miss you loads.

I hate your new attitude.

you've forgotten me.

you think you're so popular already

and I'm nothing.

I hate everything about your new attitude.

you've become so hard to talk to.

I miss you loads,

but I'm not going to tell you that.

I'll let you find that out yourself.

I do want you to know,

but you probably might not care.

i love you

and

i'm not going to tell you

i'd rather be your friend

pretend that's nothing wrong

than

to lose you.

That's what you get :)

2010-02-28T18:05:00.001+08:00

I don't know why you bother lying.

It's pretty obvious what you're doing.

I trusted you.

but what can I do?

I have no power over you.

And you don't know how it makes me feel,

you think you're so cool,

but guess what?

I ain't a fool,

I don't wanna fight with you.

---

LOL.

super bored, yes.

plussss,

I keep looking outta my house because I have new neighbours.

3 hot guys, apparently :P

buuuuuut whatever,

haha.

First of all,

I miss you, loads.

yes, you :)

LOYALTY

damnnn. what a big word.

where's your sense of loyalty?

you're my friend right?

start being loyal.

you don't see me doing what you're doing (;

TRUST

damnitt,

I trust you.

even though you don't deserve my effing trust.

friends, my head.

NAME CALLING

isn't that so primary school?

I can't believe you would stoop that low.

So freakin unbelievable.

you're being a complete hypocrite.

you call me names,

but come on,

have you looked at yourself.

I trusted you,

because I thought you'd always be there to support me.

I needed you and you were there for me,

thankyou for being there.

but I just want to know why the bitching behind my back?

you can be so unpredictable.

and I hate myself for being so gullible to just trust you like that.

you've been there for me countless of times,

but what's worse is you've disappointed me more.

I hate you so much for that,

because you were all I had.

I have feelings, too.

I know you're probably reading this.

I don't want to get involved in your life anymore,

if I'm not worth your time,

I don't really care if you bitch about me anymore,

go right ahead.

I'm not going to care anymore,

because guess what?

you're not worth my time anymore.

it pains me to lose a friend, maybe not just one,

I hate you for doing this to me,

and to other people,

enough is enough right?

I don't need you anymore,

I have other people.

People who will support me.

they wont bitch about me behind my back,

they won't go around telling my secrets to others,

they won't call me names behind my back,

they'll be there,

they won't disappoint me.

So, go back to your pretty perfect life,

because you'll be the one disappointed.

you hurt me so much.

I can't bear seeing you anymore.

I'm at the point of a breakdown,

but you don't know that do you?

you may know my life story like I told you,

you probably think the worse about me,

but I don't care,

well, not anymore.

i'm going to not care because I don't wanna fight with you anymore.

I'm going to be the grown up one.

immature?

yes, that's you.

I'm tired of taking all your crap,

and you needing me only when necessary.

so guess what?

you got your wish,

I'm out of your life.

thankyou (:

pfftt.

please, loads of people will be thinking I'm talking about them :P

hahah,

buuuuuuuuuuuut lemme give you a letter aightt?

The name starts with the letter : E :D

yippeeee.

Plankton

2010-02-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

I am super obsessed with Plankton nowww.

Thankyou Nadzwan!

if not for you,
I woulfn't be obsessed with Planktooon (:
SO CUTE I SWEAR.

MY LOVE :D

So cuuuuuuuuute.

AHAHA.

I'm in love with this evil fella.

Absolutely yours

2010-02-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

Dear whoever you are (:

I'm finee.

no seriously,

i am fineee.

ate mcd's and kfc for dinner.

school was normal

shyte,

except i lupa bawa the cupcakes for some people.

so here's your public apology :

I'm sorry to :

ilaina

dania

edreen

nadzwan

keith chong

oh and to whoever else i forgot to bring 'em for.

haha.

i x tidur semalam so yeaaaah.

not planning to tonight either :)

today started out really bad.

thankyou for being there for me

emma yip

and

ilaina khairulzaman

OMG

and sufian

for coming all the way to my house to check up on me that day.

i totally love you for that.

ugh,

the rest of my life is pretty sucky,

i guess.

paaaaaaaauuuuse,

watching spongebob the movie.

as much as i hate to admit it,

it's a LITTLE BIT funny :D

Knife

2010-02-23T01:06:00.001+08:00

Knifeeee.

cuts like a knifeeeee.

how will i ever live?

i'm so deeply wounded.

=(

2010-02-23T01:05:00.001+08:00

Do I look like a toy to you?

stop effing playing with my feelings,

stupidd phonee.

you confuse me even more,

damn you computer.

and you,

THIS IS IT.

ALL YOUR FAULT :(

I still can't sleep.

One textmate is so not enough.

Shawn's running out of steeaaaam.

quick, someone.

text me.

i feel uber emo again.

:(

2010-02-23T00:31:00.001+08:00

SHIT.

I HATE YOU.

NO.

I EFFING LOVE YOU.

The Sun and The Clouds :)

2010-02-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

Be my teddy bear?

promise me the world.

say you'll love me.

say you'll never leave me.

say you'll be mine.

don't hold back, baby.

cause i need you,

and i don't wanna miss a moment to share with you.

love me for who i am.

i promise to love you completely for who you are.

be mine,

and i will have the world,

we will have the world.

because with you,

your hands around my waist,

holding on to my hand,

we shall love each other, hopefully,

for a long time.

don't make me wait,

don't make me cry tears of sorrow.

save me,

don't leave me here alone.

say you want me,

say you need me,

like i need you.

it hurts me to think that you love someone else.

don't be mad at me,

love me.

i need you right here,

right now.

hold my hand?

i'll promise you the world,

the stars, the sun and the moon,

and i'll never let you go.

because

i love you <3

Addicted

2010-02-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T SLEEP :(

Like, seriously.

WHY?

It's your fault.

depressed much?

yeah, very.

Shawn called once more.

and we talked and talked :)

but before that,

i was on the phone with some sleepy head,

that i ter-woke up.

sorrrrryyy!

anyways, back to the story.

in a nutshell.

this is what we discussed.

His opinion :

Girls, these days,

are slutty.

they're trying too much to be noticed.

My opinion :

we don't have a choice because the guys base it all on looks.

His opinion :

Girls these days are players.

they play with our hearts

My opinion :

Like WTF?

The guys are toying with our emotions.

they say their interested,

get YOU interested,

flirt, flirt, flirt,

and in the end,

it becomes nothing :(

His opinion :

Guys want to be loved,

not overpowered by their girlfriends

My opinion :

we're scared to lose the guy,

we have to keep stepping up the game,

guys love challenges don't they?

His opinion :

Girls are very confusing.

My opinion :

Girls hate it when guys swear,

especially when they're talking to you,

and you swear about something.

it makes them feel as if they are the target.

His opinion :

Girls toy with guy's emotions,

they flirt with the world.

My opinion :

Guys think it's cool,

to use a girl,

and just keep toying around with her.

they should tell from the start.

pretty much about that, i guess.

so, to sum it all up.

it's hard to find a loyal guy/girl.

never get a boyfriend or girlfriend.

like we say

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS, BABYY! :D

WHOOOTT <3

But still,

you'll always crave for that love.

whatever lah kan?

we'll all find it someday.

soulmates.

like what pn mohana said.

hopefully, we do, sooner.

hopefully,

we don't have to suffer through everything.

text me?

I can't sleep.

Terrified?

2010-02-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

So, I'm on the phone with Shawn.

It's super funny, cause

I was singing to him Terrified,

the song which I'm going to sing for ML 2.0

and this was how our conversation went

Shawn : Terrified of what?

Xan : you idiot, of love.

Shawn : is that even possible?

Xan : no, it isn't. omgsh, shawn, you've become stupid.

Shawn : HEY.

Xan : whoops, i mean stupid-er.

Shawn : I'm not talking to you

Xan : why does everyone keep saying that to me? -merajuk-

Shawn : OH NO, don't do the merajuk thing, please?

Xan : -starts sniffing-

Shawn : I'll buy you a teddy bear.

Xan : really? I don't have a teddy bear. -sniffles

Shawn : you're a girl.

Xan : wow, i didn't know that.

Shawn : so sad lah you.

Xan : back off, retard.

Shawn : oh crap.

Xan : UHUH?

Shawn : awww, you're so cuute.

Xan : say that again and i'll kill you.

Shawn : so cuuute

Xan : I swear I will hang up, you retard.

Shawn : so cute lah you.

- hangs up -

Shawn calls back again

Shawn : YOU HUNG UP ON ME!

Xan : tell me something i don't know.

Shawn ; you're cute, and small and and and adorable.

Xan : - keeps quiet -

Shawn : sorry lah, don't know how to talk compliments is it?

Xan : Thanks?

Shawn : that's the way, girl.

Xan : erm okay?

Shawn : hug from behind?

Xan : go die lah you, only my boyfriend is allowed to do that.

Shawn : you don't have one.

Xan : don't remind me please.

Shawn : sorry, hold your hand?

Xan : nope, you can't do that either.

Shawn : but I like holding your hands, they're so soft.

Xan : you are so not being romantic. and besides that was like what? 2 years ago?

Shawn : I wanna hold your hand now then.

Xan : No, no holding hands.

Shawn : you're mean.

Xan : go find a girlfriend.

Shawn : then you go find a boyfriend.

Xan : -keeps quiet-

Shawn : I hit a soft spot didn't i? omgsh, don't you dare cry.

Xan : I am not crying.

Shawn : yeah, i just don't know what to think to make you happy.

Xan : I am happy.

Shawn : you're crapping again

Xan : huh?

Shawn : you have that tone of voice, i shouldn't have said the B word.

Xan : naaah, s'okay.

Shawn : just reminded you of the ex boyfriend. crap.

Xan : SMILEEEE

Shawn : change of topic

Xan : Kurt Hummel baby <3

Shawn : oh crap

Xan : Imma call you back, Shawnny boy.

Shawn : okay, bye xanny :)

IT WAS HILARIOUS :D

Go to work on a Xandria (:

2010-02-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

go to http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan and type in your name (: generate slogans for each of the questions below.

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?

- There's only One Xandria

2. What do you want other people to say about you?

- You've got questions. We've got Xandria.

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...

- I'm lovin' Xandria

4. How would you answer a boot?

- The world's Xandria's marketplace

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?

- Hope it's Xandria, it's Xandria, We hope it's Xandria

6. To someone you dislike?

- Don't get mad, get Xandria

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?

- With a name like Xandria, it has to be good

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...

- if only everything in life was as reliable as Xandria

9. You're failing a subject, you say...

- What can Xandria do for you?

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?

- New thinking. New Xandria.

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...

- Whatever you're into, Get into Xandria.

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...

- The Xandria that smiles back

13. What are the best words to describe you?

- Once driven, forever Xandria

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...

- Xandria stays sharp til the bottom of the glass.

15. Your last words before you die...

- Nobody does it like Xandria

16. Your message to a special someone..

- Lipsmackin' Thirstquenchin' Acetastin' Motivatin' Goodbuzzin' Cooltalkin' Highwalkin' Fastlivin' Evergivin' Coolfizzin' Xandria.

17. Title of this post will be...

- Go to work on a Xandria

School (:

2010-02-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

You set it again,

My heart's in motion (:

- Terrified by Katharine McPhee -

Schoooooooool ♥

back to school.

school was pretty awesome today.

believe it or not?

I actually had fun during SIVIC CLASS.

yeah, I was sitting with Fikri and Chris.

And we were telling each other completely lame jokes (:

we did this stupid shark boat game thingy,

where you throw your family members off the boat into the sea to the sharks

it was absolutely stupid.

of course, everyone saved themselves.

well, not everyone did do that.

i saved kelly :)

why?

don't ask, i seriously don't know.

imran saved his mum and got all emotional.

poor him :(

chris saved, damn can't remember who.

OH and i also actually finished my essay during sivic

which was such a complete waste of time

because Pn Mohana didn't even ask us to pass it up.

i could've finished my stupid stupid stupid BIO PEKA :(

ISH.

So upsetting you knoww.

OOOOOOOOOOOH :D

the Melawati Live 2.0 tickets are out.

yes, you can buy from me,

and only me.

Maria Xandria Claudia Morden.

OH, and if you're my date,

you get to come free.

i actually have 3 free tickets (:

yes, 3, you hear that?

be nice to me.

I STILL NEED A DATE.

EVERYONE ON THE COMITTEE HAS A DATE EXCEPT FOR ME.

THAT SUCKS MAN :(

where was i?

oh yes,

after sivic,

we had english

oh Pn Mohana, how i love you.

=.="

we talked about oral.

Jaipreet kaur dhillon and Maria xandria claudia morden together <3

we're going to talk about AMERICAN IDOL.

theeen, we had rehat.

spent rehat with raja farrah, the bestfriend forever girl.

retarded much?

damnn i love her ♥

ahnyways, we had add maths then.

stupid teacher kenakan me.

i swear i hantar her book and she scolded me saying i x hantar :(

such a mean lady.

then, BIO.

I love Pn Asnita.

she's super duper nice.

we played who wants to be a millionaire biology style.

we won alright.

like duhh.

see lah who's in the class.

ME :D

cheeeh.

i was gossipping with alias iskandar,

my manwhore.

haha.

while Preet kept saying

SLUT behind me.

pffft.

ANYWAYS, let's skip maths.

SAMUEL and I were supposed to skip EST together,

but the genius last minute decided to go.

i was super duper upset.

like, seriously.

i thought i was going to be alone for 40 mins :(

buuuuuuut julian carlos came along and saved me.

why did he have to lose his phone la?

pffft, miss talking to him.

we caught up though.

aaaaaand talked.

ilaina was there.

and and and jon.

and and and derwin.

we think there's something going on between derwin and jon's sister.

HAHAHAHAHA.

BARATH's girlfriend is super pretty, you know.

i had a total bimbo moment today.

like, totally.

so funny.

and theeeeeeeeeeen,

i balik-ed to have my piano class.

good heavens.

i hate class.

class was as usual.

SUFIAN came over.

so nice of him.

i love my daddy lah.

i played the piano for him.

i called ilaina and emma.

talked to them for quite a long, long time.

aaaaaaaand omgee,

guess who called me?

SHAWN.

yes, that guy.

i was like super shocked.

talked to him for hours.

haha.

it's been like so long since we've talked to each other.

oh maaaan,

and i lost a stupid bet.

1 freakin stupid bet.

isshh.

actually, it's 2 noww.

blecch.

I'M NOT SLEEPING TONIGHT :)

Teman Me?

you know my number kan?

loads of hugs and kisses,

maria xandria morden (:

Valentine's Day ♥

2010-02-16T13:51:00.000+08:00

And I know this much is true,

baby you,

have become my addiction (:

- Because of You by Ne-Yo -

Valentine's Day ♥

14the Of February 2010

I didn't sleep,

that's for sure.

I was on the phone the whole night,

haha becaue some people refused to let me sleep.

& there were also others who fell asleep on the phone.

*coughs

Not mentioning names.

I guess I slept for a few minutes and woke up at 7.

and was on the phone straight away.

and got onto facebook.

YAAAY (:

I finally ate at 12 something?

yeaah, around that time.

and later i fell asleep.

we went to the Eurasion Club at 6.

Everyone brought their boyfriends. :(

So, I was stuck with Kyle.

pssssh,

it was an awesome night,

that's for sure.

we only got back around 3, i guess.

i woke up at 2 the next day (:

valentine's day was completely awesome,

why?

that's for me to know and you to find out,

haha x)

anyways,

i love yah guys.

i am freaking tired.

dah lah demam, pssh.

hugs and kisses,

Maria Xandria Morden (:

Happy Valentine's Day ♥

2010-02-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

What do you say to taking chances? (:

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone.

Is everyone in the mushy, romantic mood yet?

God knows I am.

I've been playing lovey dovey songs on my iPod the whole day.

& Valentine's Day is less than 12 hours.

Plus what a day for me to NOT have credit.

So if you guys wish me and I don't reply,

I'm super duper sorry.

I'll be staying over my gramma's house.

if you wanna stalk me,

it's at Gombak x)

haha.

I'll be staying there until Tuesday.

I MIGHT not facebook so sorryyy :)

So, I have a question.

Have you guys gotten your Valentine yet?

if you haven't yet,

what the hell are you waiting for? (:

GO, before they're taken.

Spread the love.

Tell them how you feel.

hug them.

LET THEM KNOW THEY'RE LOVED!

This is your one chance x)

Valentine's Day.

where everyone gets in that mood.

It's a really special day.

Everyone being in love.

For the single ladies, like moi,

lighten up.

I know that maybe some of you are depressed,

lookin at everyone being oh so happy and romantic.

i know you want someone to put their arms around you and hold you tight.

I want that, too, okay! :P

Like, a WHOLE LOT.

I know you want someone to be there for you.

there is always someone out there thinking of you,

and I actually mean in a good way,

haha (;

Tell her/him how much you feel.

tell them you love them before it's too late.

don't be afraid of rejection.

if you're rejected, move on.

there are other people out there who deserves your love.

you might not be the only one who has been rejected.

and trust me ,

i know what rejection is :D

anyways,

to make this short.

Happy Valentine's Day, once again!

Make it a memorable one.

Oh and Happy Valentine's Day to my Valentine,

before I forget,

haha.

I ♥ you guys.

loads of love, hugs and kisses,

Maria Xandria Claudia Morden x)

2010-02-12T14:04:00.000+08:00

I will be,

All that you want.

- I Will Be by Leona Lewis -

OMG,I haven't updated in ages.

haha,

I am such an awful blogger.

I ♥ Kurt Hummel.

He's so cuuuuute x)

I didn't get much sleep last night.

Okay, I didn't even get sleep.

Valentine's Day is coming up sooon :P

Have you guys gotten your Valentine yet?

So far, I've got 3 presents,

YAAY!

Chocolateees and roses.

wheeeee (;

I have kawad later.

& then I'm going to watch valentine's day.

be Jealoussss (;

haha,

i promise to give you a whole update on my life soon.

i proooomisee x)

hugs and kisses,

Sexay Cheeka ♥

Jealousy

2010-01-29T02:28:00.000+08:00

nope.

i am not jealous.

maybe just a little.

oh crap.

i hate that woman.

die, die die.

i repeat,

i am not jealous.

oh crap.

i am.

this wasn't planned.

what happened to the original plan?

stick to Plan A.

don't change a thing, xaaaaaaan.

you retaaard lah :(

kadaboomkabammawhammawham (:

2010-01-29T02:12:00.000+08:00

i have officially gone nuts.

my brains has just exploded.

i've finally finished 1 out of my 2 karangan-s that i'm supposed to pass it up tmrw.

shit.

crikes.

i am so screwed.

add maths homework is done.

yippeeee.

no credit, so please don't sms meh.

i am beyond bored.

oooh what shall i do?

i'm actually watching mtv.

yes, i have no life.

& i still want to buy guitar hero.

daddyyy, i nak guitar hero :(

i luff youu.

beli untuk i puhleese? (:

ah well, my birthday's coming up soon.

very, very soon.

awww, i can see kels and fizzi (my sausage dog) cuddled up close together,

under that really big blankie.

on my bed =..="

oh well.

since i love them so much.

they can have my bed, for tonight only.

i am such a freakin stalker.

haha.

i'm stalking "a certain person" on facebook.

uhh, yeah.

beware,

you could be next.

heehee (:

BLG :(

-sigh-

I can't go.

it's completely not fair.

well, whatevs lah.

errr, i better go sleep.

i want to look pretty in my picture tmrw.

hahaha.

soo, nightt sweetums.

OMG,

Btw Ains,

Guess who they're playing on MTV now?

Archuleta, Crush.

He's sooo cuuuute.

It reminds me how i fell in love with him.

i love this soooooooomg x)

do you ever think?

when you're all alone.

all that we can be?

where this thing can go? (:

sigh, archie.

oh well.

goodnight for real, people.

hugs and kisses,

Sexay Cheeka (:

28th of January 2010

2010-01-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

& it's all because of you.

- Because Of You by Ne-Yo -

I don't like seeing my friends fight.

pleaaaaaaaase, don't fight.

i x nak masuk campur.

you guys shouldn't argue over this stupid thing.

there are faaaar more important things to deal with.

are we just going to isolate this person?

after every moment we shared together?

whether if it was painful, sad, happy?

guys, please.

just stop this.

I don't want us all to separate.

we've been through worse.

please, stoooop ):

hugs and kisses,

xannybananiewhammie.

Menghitung Hari (:

2010-01-28T00:12:00.001+08:00

Menghitung Hari

Kris Dayanti

How such poetry lyrics and melody move me to tears... :'(

Menghitung hari detik demi detik

(counting the days moment by moment)

Masa ku nanti apa kan ada

(the time I'm waiting for will be there)

Jalan cerita kisah yang panjang

(storyline, a long tale)

Menghitung hari

(counting the days)

Padamkan saja kobar asmaramu

(just put out your flames of passion/desire)

Jika putih itu tak kan ada

(if there is no truth)

Yang aku minta tulus hatimu

(what I ask is your sincerity)

Bukan puitis

(not pretense)

Pergi saja cintamu pergi

(just let go your love away)

Bilang saja pada semua

(just tell everyone)

Biar semua tahu adanya

(let everyone know of its existence)

Diriku kini sendiri

(now I'm all left alone)

The recent thingymajiggies (:

2010-01-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

Can You Handle Me The Way I Are?

- The Way I Are by Timbaland featuring Keri Hilson -

I swear,

every music shop I walk in,

they like suddenly play Adam Lambert's music,

even if I just walk past it :P

- sigh -

true love.

xanny wants pie.

meatpie.

& loads of it.

puhleese,

don't ask why (:

I love my cheekas,

they're so awesome.

especially, cute cheeka.

she the bomb.

OHEMMGEE.

some girl fainted today.
creepy :D

Ahnyways,

I can't go for BLG :(

God hates me,

pffft.

i love my cheekas,

i love my fabulous five,

i love my sassy six.

hugs and kisses,

xannybananiewhammie (:

21st of January 2010

2010-01-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

I want your psycho,

your vertical shtick

- bad romance by lady gaga -

good heavens,

he's hott (;

yes, i ain't telling you who.

hahah, deal with it kids.

school is pretty awesome.

today, was super freaky.

moral class.

pn chong and her freaky nilais.

i thank my lucky stars that i remembered them

kerpercayaan kepada tuhan :

keyakinan wujudnya tuhan sebagai pencipta alam,

dan mematuhi segala suruhannya,

berlandaskan pegangan agama masing-masing,

selaras dengan prinsip rukun negara.

amanah :

sikap bertanggungjawab yang boleh menimbulkan

kepercayaan dan keyakinan orang lain.

yayy meee!

whoottt!

everything else was fine lah today.

maths and all were easy.

i swear i seriously don't get physics.

i need a tutor.

anyone willing to teach this idiot here?

please message me if you are (;

haha,

im such a loser la.

ishh.

oh whoops.

i seriously gotta stop with the ish-ing.

did i mention i got the part for persada?

yipppee.

shit.

what am i going to write?

and my karangan.

oh nooo.

formatted karangan.

i only write cerita lah :(

whee~~

╔══╗♫
║██║
║(O)║♥♫Music is Life♫
╚══╝

hugs and kisses,

xannybananiewhammie

. i love my cheekas .

. i love my fabulous five .

. i love my sassy six .

My New Cheekas

2010-01-17T15:07:00.001+08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day

- Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls -

The CHEEKAS :

ilaina khairulzaman : Cute Cheeka
maria xandria morden : Sexy Cheeka

julian carlos : Hot Cheeka

sufian ahmad : Tall Cheeka

damn i love them, cheekas (;

they're amazing, wonderful people.

thankyou guys :D

hugs and kisses,

xannybananiewhammie

The Classico Jam

2010-01-16T00:42:00.001+08:00

The Classico Jam

they're a band,

made up of 5 people.

and they're all form 4's.

amazing really.

the lead singer, imran,

has an awesome voice.

im so jealous :(

don't believe,

waaaatch the vids! :)

Hotel california (;

isshh so awesome.

watch it,

or dieeee :D

& here's another :

Smoke on the water (;

WAAAAAAATCH :D

Boys Like Girls

2010-01-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

You'll always be my thunder

- Thunder by Boys Like Girls -

WTF?

they're coming down to MALAYSIA?

Whoooooooooootttt!

this is awesome news.

apparently,

they're coming down on the 28th of february.

daymmm,

what a date.

lawwl.

yeahh, my daddy better get mee tickets.

or else...

(;

ilaina khairulzaman (;

2010-01-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

I'm yours.

- I'm Yours by Jason Mraz -

ilaina khairulzaman,

my bestfriend,

my sister,

my kakak,

my babyy,

my looove.

& many, many more.

she's the most awesome person on earth.

she's the best person to talk to you when you have a problem.

she's ilaina khairulzaman,

my bestfriend.

ilaina khairulzaman,

that girl with the cuuute smile,

the one that will never die,

the most hyper person alive.

my ilaina khairulzaman.

the sweetest thing on earth,

the bubbliest person to talk to,

she's like the sun in my life,

& the moon at night.

i love my ilaina khairulzaman.

ps. i was bored, forgive mehh.

hugs and kisses,

xannybananiewhammie.

The 15th of January 2010 (;

2010-01-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

I want your loving & I want your revenge

- Bad Romance by Lady Gaga -

- Opens Book & flips pages -

15th of january 2010

Dear -pauses- Imma call you Draco.

Dear Draco,

Father's in Singapore.

I woke up late today, but thankfully managed to get to school on time.

yay, me!

School was deffo very interesting.

BM was whatever la, maths, too.

Our English Teacher, Puan Mohana didn't come today.

So, what do you think we did?

Yes, that's rightt!

We sat and talked and laughed like retards.

The whole 4 Maju.

Making crappy jokes about each other.

Especially Miyn & her big big new toy (;

Imran, who is like Seacrest.

I swear, pfft.

Ah yes,

& the comments of the big feet thing.

I found out that christopher de lima's shoe size is 11.

good heavens.

Mine is only 5 =.="

DON'T YOU DARE LAUGH! :D

& then,

Keith and I saw this thing on the table which said

" I recently lost my teddy bear.

Will you sleep with me tonight? "

& I went and told christopher that.

heehee.

I was just talking to him on MSN.

& he's coming to at 1am to put me to bed.

Aww shucks,

I'm awfully tired.

So, so sorry.

I promise to update tmrw, a whole lot.

Going out with some Form 5's tomorrow.

Yeepees.

Nighties

hugs and kisses,

xannybananiewhammie.

Back to Basics

2010-01-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

Back to Basics :)

Let's start with the basics

Name : Maria Xandria Claudia Morden

Date Of Birth : 16 March 1994

Age of this year : 16

Interest : Music

Idol of The Year : Lady Gaga or Adam Lambert

Something more complicated? Be honest :)

Last person who messaged you : julian carlos

Last person you messaged : cameron gomez

Last person you hugged : preet kaur

Last person you kissed : farrah lin

Last facebook profile you commented on : kishen christopher

Last call you made : mummy

Getting difficult...

Any plans for today? Audition, meeting.

Planning an outing soon? Actually, it's tomorrow (;

Going for a party? Totally, soon.

Would you rather kill a dog or cat? A cat, duhh buuuut how is this diff?

- The End -

Ps. do not comment on the purple, purple rocks (;

yabba dabba dooo...

x marks the spot, people.

hugs and kisses from,

xannybananiewhammie

Hello 2010 (:

2010-01-15T01:57:00.000+08:00

You're the best thing I never knew I needed.

- Never Knew I Needed by Ne-Yo-

Dear 2010,

First of all, let me introduce myself.

My name is Maria Xandria Claudia Morden.

Or Sam or Xan or XanXan for short.

I'm going to be 16 in exactly 2 months and a day.

YAY! Finally (;

This year, I have decided to make a change in my life.

Which, some poeple already know.

& I have my own reasons.

If you wanna know, too bad.

Wait til I tell you :D

2008/2009 :

It wasn't a sucky year. Not at all.

It was one of the best years of my entire life.

Moving to Sekolah Menengah Taman Melawati was not a mistake.

The truth is,

I never wanted to move.

I was totally against moving.

I threatened my sisters on running away from home and all.

Now when I think back about it,

It was pretty stupid.

I didn't want to leave Stella Maris because it was already like my home.

I had friends there.

My life was perfect.

iI had the bestest bestfriend in the universe

( which btw, still is my bestfriend )

& many other friends who were there for me when my life came tumbling down in the year 2007.

Craig, Ben, Devon, Asha.

Well, you know who you are.

Thankyouu for being there for me.

You guys are simply amazing.

& I love you guys.

When I moved,

I got into class 3 Sejahtera.

the teacher said it was the first class,

I was shocked, because I considered myself stupid, you see.

Anyways, I walked in and sat at the front.

the first person who spoke to me :

faqrull imran (;

He asked me if I was new.

I still remember.

I then met some old friends, lots of them, actually.

When Hasmin Nadhira joined me in 3S,

suddenly, the jigsaw puzzle was complete.

Leela Thomas, Jaipreet Kaur, Melodie Lim, Hasmin Nadhira & I were soon BFF's

& we were later joined by Farrah Lin.

It was only later on that I became friends with :

brian yohanes, lughen hari, rahulan raj, keith chong

& many more.

I could never evert forget ;

christopher ryan de lima's face

why?

he bullied me when we were kids.

retard.

i still love you, tho, chris.

My life was just complete.

but I felt guilty,

moving on without my old friends.

I did keep in touh with them,

& for those whom i didn't,

i'm sorry.

i'm trying very hard this year (;

I made more awesome friends even later,

when I joined some drama thing for english.

i met ;

fabiolla netto ( amazing person )

ilaina khairulzaman ( who's like my big kakak now )

daniel mervin ( my big brother )

& some others, too.

not forgetting ;

leon anthony fernandez

you gotta love this duuude

cause God knows, i do :D

- back to the present -

It's almost 2 in the morning

& I have school tomorrow.

i've got some meeting for the English Society

& some audition thing for Choir.

I still haven't chosen a song yet.

-rewind-

January 1

happy new year! (;

-fast forward-

January 5

first day of school,

emma, miyn & I got into 4 Amanah.

+ Liau, Brian &Sam, later on.

-fast forward-

January 15

Miyn & I just transferred to 4 Maju yesterday.

Yipppeeee :)

We're now with Preet, Lughen, Chris, Keith, Dania

& many more from 3 Sejahtera.

Did I mention about the 2 new guys in school?

In our form?

Naww?

Too bad.

HAH!

Cause I ain't telling you anything.

Anyways,

in 2010,

I've become closer to more idiots :)

Mainly,

julian carlos, sufian ahmad.

my bimbotic losers.

teehee.

Taa people of the world.

ily loads.

hugs & kisses from :

xannybananiewhammie (: